all i can think about lately is being in the forest, walking through the beautiful trees in a dense and quiet woods. sleeping by the ocean, the sounds of the gentle waves like a lullabye in my ears. i miss the ocean so much and the forest. we live in the city now, more than we did before and i am so unhappy here. i can't believe how people live in such closeness to all the noise of the cars and the buildings all around. i feel like running so fast from here......to find the peace and beauty of nature. i am sure that many of the problems in the world are because of cities......and people not having the gentleness and healing of nature to guide and comfort them. cities are interesting and exciting sometimes, but they almost feel like a trap. in nature, we are free, we can be like children and we can feel the beauty God gave us in our smiles and our happiness.
i don't want to live here anymore. i think about the ocean so much. when i see a picture of the ocean, my heart just breaks with such longing for the sea. it is so magnificent......so beauiful and amazing. how can we as a people put ourselves so far from this powerful and yet humble gift we have been given? i am trying to find something away from here that we can do or go to so that we can free ourselves from this horrible place. i miss the animals of the forest, the little ladybugs and the beetles and the gentle birds and raccoons. i miss the seaweed, the sand and the sounds of the sea. to sleep with the sound of the sea is to dream of a heavenly place and to walk in gentle gardens, happy and beautiful.
i hope we can find a place soon where we can be close to nature again. i miss it terribly.