dreams and realities.......

it seems like lately i have had such a difficult time......so depressed and worried about the future, our future. i am so tired, lately, too. this last week, i started having trouble breathing. sometimes, it was terrible, so frightening! especially at night, i almost felt like i was hyperventilating. it might just be panic attacks, but i went to the doctor and had some tests done just to make sure everything is alright. i found out today that the blood tests show i have some sort of slight abnormality. i have to go back tomorrow for more tests. i am hoping it's not something serious. it scares me, though.

i miss my husband so much. we used to be together all the time. we worked together for about 15 years.....on our art, taking care of people and working for people doing their cooking and cleaning. this is the first year in such a long time that we haven't been together all the time. we're trying to find work again where we can be together again.

i can't wait until the spring, too. winter is sometimes so depressing. i miss the sunshine and the warmth of spring and summer.

i need a change so much. sometimes it just feels like life is just not changing enough. the blogs i visit (where all these incredible photos come from) are my life-line to the world. every day, i spend time visiting these lovely places of beauty, inspiration and tranquility. Humor and sweetness, surprise and delight......i find such solace and happiness in the blogs i visit. thank you to all for the beauty you share. i am endebted to each of you for the wonder you give me and how you lift my spirits every day......

debbie

sleeping in the trees......

i am very tired and quite discouraged. if it weren't for all the beautiful blogs i visit every day, i really would be in a downward spiral. i don't feel like i am using my talents as much as i could......i see so many other people having such success and doing such exciting things......i just don't think my life is exciting. there's so much i'd like to do......go to europe, sell our art there, have our own little house and shop, share our beautiful art with others more......

i am trying so much to find a good opportunity for us, but nothing is happening. someone told me recently that right now in the universe, things are happening faster. she said that if we want something to happen in our lives, we need to react quickly and ask for what we want. i pray all the time and ask for God's help, but i've never looked at it this way. i only want to do something good in my life, to share the beauty i find with others and help the world be more inspiring. i just wish mike and i could find a wonderful opportunity that would really make us happy......

black and white and color

such a hard time right now......trying to find work, trying to get away from being bored, trying to keep going. what do you do to keep going and not get depressed?

shadow box and dreaming princess bed