dreams and realities.......

it seems like lately i have had such a difficult time......so depressed and worried about the future, our future. i am so tired, lately, too. this last week, i started having trouble breathing. sometimes, it was terrible, so frightening! especially at night, i almost felt like i was hyperventilating. it might just be panic attacks, but i went to the doctor and had some tests done just to make sure everything is alright. i found out today that the blood tests show i have some sort of slight abnormality. i have to go back tomorrow for more tests. i am hoping it's not something serious. it scares me, though.

i miss my husband so much. we used to be together all the time. we worked together for about 15 years.....on our art, taking care of people and working for people doing their cooking and cleaning. this is the first year in such a long time that we haven't been together all the time. we're trying to find work again where we can be together again.

i can't wait until the spring, too. winter is sometimes so depressing. i miss the sunshine and the warmth of spring and summer.

i need a change so much. sometimes it just feels like life is just not changing enough. the blogs i visit (where all these incredible photos come from) are my life-line to the world. every day, i spend time visiting these lovely places of beauty, inspiration and tranquility. Humor and sweetness, surprise and delight......i find such solace and happiness in the blogs i visit. thank you to all for the beauty you share. i am endebted to each of you for the wonder you give me and how you lift my spirits every day......

debbie